Lately I've been trying to figure God out. Where He's taking me, why He's taking me there...But that was a bust. I think I was trying to put God in a box, limit Him to my understanding. So at the moment I'm not sure where I'm headed, but I know it's where I need to be. But I can't help but feeling like I should know a little more. Should faith feel so blind? Should being found make you feel lost in relation to everything else? This is why I never get anywhere, I second guess everything.
I know a relationship with Christ isn't a passive thing. I know it requires work and effort, but I never know when I'm working and seeking, and when I'm trying to be God, trying to know everything that I don't need to know at the moment. I don't know when to seek and when to wait on His timing.My head always gets in the way, but I know three things for sure...
- In all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
- When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory. (Colossians 3:4)
- I want to find my purpose in Him, and I want Christ to be my life. My whole life. My everything.
I want to know Christ better than I know any human being. I want to see, know, understand and feel everything that He is. I just have to get it through my thick head that if I look, I'll find Him. If I trust Him, He'll take care of me and He'll take me somewhere great. So, from here on out, I'm living each day on the promise that God wants me to know Him, and that He's seeking me even more than I'm seeking Him. God wants me to fulfill my purpose, God wants me to fall deeper and deeper in love with Him, and He wants me to spend eternity knowing and praising Him.
Um, once again, I'm not sure how to end this, so, yeah....
Hannah. xo.
